you're the nicest girl i've known
everything i have to show,
i've shown..

your laugh brightens my day..
you are so sweet,
let me say..

everytime i hear your voice,
silence becomes my noise..
noise that has rythm,
and makes me very calm..

your eyes melts everything it see..
and one of those is me..
i just can't get you out of my sight,
from day till night..

roses are red,
tulips are white,
something feels right,
w/ you by my side..

violets are blue,
yellows are green..
this is for you,
my heart you clean..

sugar is sweet,
pepper is hot,
come to think of it,
dot dot dot..

flowers for you,
and chocolates too..
i want something new,
because i like you..

the days that i'm w/ you,
everything seems to stop..
a world where there's no clock..
i`m never blue..

you make me laugh,
you make me smile..
eventhough the world is tough,
i see you even from a mile..

you gave me a life to live,
that no one can ever give..
you took all the pain away..
i'm in debt and must repay..

your smile shows me the light,
the darkness inside me vanish..
a light that shines so bright
it came true, my wish..

Just turned 21.. and I don't like it! I'm getting old!! hahaha!! too conscious.. @_@ this is my second birthday here, in Canada.  This birthday is more boring compared to last year.  oh yeah! and saddest..  It felt like all my old friends, which i'm close with, forgot about me.  I felt kinda lonely and sad.  The people that i'm not close are the people who remembered me, that kinda made my day.. :D  And this is my 2nd birthday without my mom.  She's in philippines for a family emergency.  And my brother too, he went to Philippines for a vacation.  I am so jealous.. :(

My finals for physics was yesterday and I got a good grade.  I wasn't expecting it to be that high.  I was only aiming for a mediocre score, just to pass my course. haha!  And viola! i aced it! heheh! Was I lucky or what?  Maybe, that was God's birthday gift for me. ahaha! I have an exam in calculus tomorrow, so i'm spending most of my day studying while listening to music.  hahaha!  Whatta birthday @_@

I can't go out because of the f****** weather.  Everyday, it's -40+.  Just standing on the bus stop is freaking cold.  Even walking to the bus stop is cold. :(  and i don't have any winter boots because i think that male winter boots are ugly(too conscious!! hahaha!).  Christmas is coming.. :(  hope it's fun! :P

something feels not right
yar smile isnt that bright..
the smile i always see,
it just disappeared, suddenly..

yar eyes doesn't shine that much..
blinding me was your power..
what happened to such??
it's getting weaker and weaker..

you change the way you talk..
maybe i'm just paranoid..
i noticed a lot.
OH! i'm getting annoyed!

you gave me hope and stuff..
which no one can ever give..
just being with you is enough,
for love again, i will believe..

there'll never be a happy ending.
nothing will last for ever..
everything is temporary..
this, i just have to bear..

haven't written for a long time.. :( damn school! :( hehe :D

i closed my eyes for a moment,
i saw my memories passing by..
as time flies,
it became dreams..

dreams which i don't like..
dreams that affects my mind..
dreams, even awake, continues..
eating me alive..

dreams became nightmares..
torturing every inch in body..
stabbing me from head to toe..
burning everything i have..

trying to open my eyes..
i don't know if i'm awake
or i'm still asleep..

the clock rang for a long time,
finally, i woke up, feeling blue..
just thinking of that dream..
or should i say, nightmare..

as the day passed of tiresome..
i was insane and gloomy..
it bothered me the whole day..
God, kill me now..

the definition of love, undefined..
it is a word that is too vague..
a word that is grotesque..

people say they are in love,
do they really feel it?
or they just wanna say it??
questions that rotates on my head..

love really never existed..
it is just a sense of admiration,
a sense of adoration
or something else that involves what u like..

hugs and kisses are just signs..
signs that you adore something or someone..

a word too deep,
even if you get to the bottom,
you'll end up floating up anyway..
and be bitter about life..

he wrote again..
thinking everything is done,
everything has passed..
but it didn't last..

he still lives in the dark,
wishing a light to come..
not even a spark,
he didn't see anything..

crawling in the dark,
trying to find something..
everything is blank..
everything is missing..

he felt cold and lonely..
how could this be?
waiting for someone,
to save him from the pain..

too many sleepless nights..
memories of her,
still wonders on his head..
why is this happening??

too many days have past,
he tries not to remember..
everything they did,
everything they made..
he tried to forget..

pulling each thorn,
hurts every part of him..
if it's the only way,
he would do it everyday..

pain is what he is now..
he is weak..
he is no one..
he is broken..

cursed in the darkness,
he held a paper and pen..
wrote all he felt,
and didn't look back..

no light to shine him,
he can't see..
blinded by the darkness,
he suffered..

he shouted for help,
nobody answered..
he tried to move,
numb was his body..

closed his eyes,
it was torture..
forget things,
but he remembered..

he needed help,
everyone was gone..
he was alone,
and he was weak..

a feeling of joy and unsadness..

a feeling of unloneliness..

a feeling that makes you shout!!

a feeling that makes you smile..

a feeling that makes you laugh..

a feeling that makes you melt..

a feeling of unworthiness..

a feeling of safe and security..

a feeling of warmth inside..

a feeling of being loved by someone..

a feeling of being lucky all the time..

a feeling of everything good,

that is happening around me..

all these feelings, i experience..

there is only one girl who makes me happy..

i still don't know who she is..